Trusting the Universe

09 Mar

Every day, since New Years, I’ve been thinking of my favorite quote by the great Indian nondualist Nisargadatta Maharaj:

“The only thing required of you is to allow all your raging desires to relax into preferences. Then EVERYTHING will be done THROUGH You and FOR You, not BY you.”

The Yoga Jam

23 Feb

So the other week, I showed up for a vinyasa class with a visiting ‘name’, a real mob scene. The woman at the door pointed at a huge waiting crowd and said ‘Well, you better push your way thru somehow and grab a space. Be forceful. Otherwise you’ll be shut out BIG time. Some have been anxiously waiting for like an hour.”

The Divine Road

15 Feb

(or why “Manifesting” is so damn limited:)

Someone wrote me recently to say she loved “Outrageous Openness” but found since she read it sometimes things got much HARDER for a bit…until they became more peaceful and easy. She finally had a companion she could trust in the Divine. She wondered if I’d comment.

Tapas Squared

28 Jan

(or The Joy of Letting Go)

In Sanskrit, tapas means the suffering you feel as you learn to surrender to the Divine. It’s the cosmic fire that burns away the impurities that make us chase, manipulate, and grab. Tapas can be painful as all heck cuz it’s actually the purification of the ego. But as the small self offers itself to that Divine flame, over and over, it begins to let go, like a hard fist that opens.

Stopping Before the Miracle

21 Jan

I’ve been getting this message a lot lately so I’ll tell you how I mean it. Because on the one hand, everything, of course, is one dazzling miracle after another. In the right consciousness, just that you can blink your eyes, pet a cat, or chew an apple is utterly stunning.

But sometimes we give up right before something amazing is about to occur. I’ve sure done that at times in my life. Giving up in the sense of surrendering all to the Divine, is a wonderful thing. Then the right actions always get shown. That’s the focus of most my writing.

But giving up, not even being AVAILABLE for the miracle, well, that’s a whole other deal.

A couple years ago I hiked with a friend to a lake known for good swimming. After a few miles, we saw it glistening ahead of us, a green, beckoning beauty. But as we got to the main access spot, where many people had already jumped in, the water looked slimy, muddy and dark. Beer cans littered the ground. We hung out a little bit, never entered and eventually hiked back out.

Guest Post: The Book That Inspired Me to Cancel the Sacred Conference

14 Jan

I often get stories of how this work impacts people’s lives, but rarely one as eloquent as this. I wanted to share how one woman’s openness, and continued attention to the practice of the living with surrender and offering to the Divine, brought a new way of being into her life. Let me introduce Annika Martins!

The Book That Inspired Me to Cancel the Sacred Conference

This sentence sums up my approach to goal-setting:

I will make it happen.

This sentence sums up my approach to problem-solving:

I will fix it.

I have a long track record of getting shit done. If I’m all in, I am all the way in – until the very end. This is something people often tell me they admire about me. And sure, on the surface, that tenacious love of completion is a major asset. But for most of my life, underneath the Herculean surge toward the finish line has been the hypnotic belief that this brute force model of accomplishment is what true success looked like.

And when you add in the extra layer of being an ambitious woman in a patriarchal world, I thought for sure, this was the only way to hit it big.

Hit a wall? Knock that sucker down.

Let God Surprise You

23 Dec

I honestly don’t try to manifest a thing. Learning tricks to ‘get more of what the small self wants’ feels empty, since I deeply want the Divine to take over. To me, that Love itself can be invited to use and fill ANY of us, more and more each day, is ridiculously exciting. The rest is icing on the cake. 

Even during crazy times (and omg, I’ve had plenty) there’s a reliable prayer. “Ok, God, I don’t know why this is happening, but just take me over, show the way. Show me the actions. Make me open, make me Yours. I am Yours alone.”

Actually, many old souls (regardless of age) come to feel like this. What’s interesting is what happens when you get OUT of the way. Miracle after miracle, even tiny ones. Often the weirdest, smallest needs get addressed.

A Li’l Bit of Astrology

15 Dec

Right now Saturn, the Glorious Lord of Karma, is finishing up the very last degrees of Scorpio until December 23. The last THREE degrees to be precise. So what’s that mean?

It’s a HUGE completion of the lessons of the last three years.

So, nay nay nay, you are NOT crazy if it’s like you’re walking through absolute pitch-dark, feeling your way by pure touch. There’s just stuff we CANNOT see, nor are we meant to, as the final degrees of Scorpio, the sign of Death and Rebirth, get completed. Then Saturn hits Sag on the Dec 23 for the first time in 30 years, and certain puzzle pieces will be ready to be shown. Appropriately timed soon after Solstice.

An Old Yoga Pal…

29 Oct

Last year I ran into an old yoga pal. He said he felt daily bitterness since developers had ruined so much of Colorado where he lived he could no longer buy a home. He was so mad he had ulcers. He wondered what I would do. “All that yoga out the window, right?” he laughed. […]