So the other week, I showed up for a vinyasa class with a visiting ‘name’, a real mob scene. The woman at the door pointed at a huge waiting crowd and said ‘Well, you better push your way thru somehow and grab a space. Be forceful. Otherwise you’ll be shut out BIG time. Some have been anxiously waiting for like an hour.”
(or why “Manifesting” is so damn limited:)
Someone wrote me recently to say she loved “Outrageous Openness” but found since she read it sometimes things got much HARDER for a bit…until they became more peaceful and easy. She finally had a companion she could trust in the Divine. She wondered if I’d comment.
(or The Joy of Letting Go)
In Sanskrit, tapas means the suffering you feel as you learn to surrender to the Divine. It’s the cosmic fire that burns away the impurities that make us chase, manipulate, and grab. Tapas can be painful as all heck cuz it’s actually the purification of the ego. But as the small self offers itself to that Divine flame, over and over, it begins to let go, like a hard fist that opens.
I’ve been getting this message a lot lately so I’ll tell you how I mean it. Because on the one hand, everything, of course, is one dazzling miracle after another. In the right consciousness, just that you can blink your eyes, pet a cat, or chew an apple is utterly stunning.
But sometimes we give up right before something amazing is about to occur. I’ve sure done that at times in my life. Giving up in the sense of surrendering all to the Divine, is a wonderful thing. Then the right actions always get shown. That’s the focus of most my writing.
But giving up, not even being AVAILABLE for the miracle, well, that’s a whole other deal.
A couple years ago I hiked with a friend to a lake known for good swimming. After a few miles, we saw it glistening ahead of us, a green, beckoning beauty. But as we got to the main access spot, where many people had already jumped in, the water looked slimy, muddy and dark. Beer cans littered the ground. We hung out a little bit, never entered and eventually hiked back out.
I often get stories of how this work impacts people’s lives, but rarely one as eloquent as this. I wanted to share how one woman’s openness, and continued attention to the practice of the living with surrender and offering to the Divine, brought a new way of being into her life. Let me introduce Annika Martins!
The Book That Inspired Me to Cancel the Sacred Conference
This sentence sums up my approach to goal-setting:
I will make it happen.
This sentence sums up my approach to problem-solving:
I will fix it.
I have a long track record of getting shit done. If I’m all in, I am all the way in – until the very end. This is something people often tell me they admire about me. And sure, on the surface, that tenacious love of completion is a major asset. But for most of my life, underneath the Herculean surge toward the finish line has been the hypnotic belief that this brute force model of accomplishment is what true success looked like.
And when you add in the extra layer of being an ambitious woman in a patriarchal world, I thought for sure, this was the only way to hit it big.
Hit a wall? Knock that sucker down.
I honestly don’t try to manifest a thing. Learning tricks to ‘get more of what the small self wants’ feels empty, since I deeply want the Divine to take over. To me, that Love itself can be invited to use and fill ANY of us, more and more each day, is ridiculously exciting. The rest is icing on the cake.
Even during crazy times (and omg, I’ve had plenty) there’s a reliable prayer. “Ok, God, I don’t know why this is happening, but just take me over, show the way. Show me the actions. Make me open, make me Yours. I am Yours alone.”
Actually, many old souls (regardless of age) come to feel like this. What’s interesting is what happens when you get OUT of the way. Miracle after miracle, even tiny ones. Often the weirdest, smallest needs get addressed.
Right now Saturn, the Glorious Lord of Karma, is finishing up the very last degrees of Scorpio until December 23. The last THREE degrees to be precise. So what’s that mean?
It’s a HUGE completion of the lessons of the last three years.
So, nay nay nay, you are NOT crazy if it’s like you’re walking through absolute pitch-dark, feeling your way by pure touch. There’s just stuff we CANNOT see, nor are we meant to, as the final degrees of Scorpio, the sign of Death and Rebirth, get completed. Then Saturn hits Sag on the Dec 23 for the first time in 30 years, and certain puzzle pieces will be ready to be shown. Appropriately timed soon after Solstice.
When all actions are offered 100% to the Tao from the depth of your heart, everything unfolds according to Divine Order in the right time and way. You needn’t have anxiety. The deepest needs of your heart are known.
This morning a friend told me her huge, gorgeous garden was covered in unexpected frost when she woke up. She instantly thought, “Oh man, all those months of hard, hard work! All Lost!”