When you finally take
your calm and silent seat
on the throne
of your own heart
everything begins to fall into
it’s proper place
– From “Make Me Your Own”, Tosha Silver
When all actions are offered 100% to the Tao from the depth of your heart, everything unfolds according to Divine Order in the right time and way. You needn’t have anxiety. The deepest needs of your heart are known.
This morning a friend told me her huge, gorgeous garden was covered in unexpected frost when she woke up. She instantly thought, “Oh man, all those months of hard, hard work! All Lost!”
“Let your raging desires become Preferences. That is YOUR part. After that, all things will be done FOR you and THROUGH you, not BY you.”
I always loved this quote by the great nondualist Indian saint but honestly couldn’t figure out for the LIFE of me how someone with a passionate nature could actually DO this. Then I realized, like everything else, there’s Change Me Prayer . The Divine will do for you what the ego could never do for itself.
Somebody asked me at a party last night how “Outrageous Openness” might be different than the other 500 new age and spiritual books cluttering her shelves already. I told her my favorite metaphor.
Wishing, hoping, resisting, and ‘trying to manifest’ are all ways to adapt to the prison cell of normalcy. They say if ONLY there was a prettier rug or a better couch in that damn cell it might be ok. (Or maybe a cute, hot inmate to do time with.)
But learning to Align with the Divine and offer EVERYTHING over is a whole other deal. You walk out of the cell altogether.
Oddly, you often discover that many of those things you thought you desperately wanted, either fall away or simply HAPPEN at the appointed time in the most beautiful and spontaneous ways.
You simply stop thinking like a ‘struggling human.’
You make the ultimate jailbreak.
Lately, just for fun I’ve been memorizing a few of poems from my past. Cuz I once heard the amazing poet Olga Broumas and she did a reading entirely from memory, eyes shut, swaying in prayer. It totally moved me. So I’m teaching myself a poem or two. In honor of Olga :))
Anyway, I was standing in line at Peets yesterday for my matcha addiction, using the time to memorize this short one that some of you know.
And just as I got to the front of the line, the guy in front of me turned around and I see his shirt. No joke, seriously cue Twilight Zone music. I almost fell over.
One of the reasons that I don’t write about astrology often, even though I love it and once spent 30 years doing a gazillion charts, is that people can get trapped on the roller-coaster of “Good transits! I’ll FINALLY get what I want!” and “Bad transits! I’ll NEVER get what I want!”
The focus is still entirely based in the small self.
The other day a friend and I were having a conversation about a ticket I might be buying. She said ‘Well, it’s very unlikely you’ll get one. At least you better hurry and act fast!!! Everything will sell out and you’ll be left out!’
This made me smile a bit and I thought of the story in ‘Outrageous Openness’ called (without god). A bunch of you may know it. Yes everyone will rush to tell you why you can’t do certain things..and it’s TRUE if you think like a fearful person.
But if it’s offered to the Divine and it’s meant to be, it will simply BE. So I told my friend since I honestly didn’t care if I got the ticket or not, if it was meant to happen the Divine could make it occur even at the very last second! If it was Her will.
I just refused to think ‘like a struggling person’.
And why shouldn’t you?
Then I looked down at the table where we spoke and realized someone had left a paper open to THIS picture.
The road to belonging to Yourself can be long, agonizing and circuitous. Often, as the process unfolds, you really don’t know where the hell you’re being led. But at some point, if you keep offering yourself again and again to this Inner Divine, if you make a steady invitation, you begin to “belong” to You. You can just feel it inside, growing a tiny bit day by day.
This has nothing to do with manifesting ANYTHING. It’s an inner sacred road led by Love. It’s available to anyone.
You’re familiar with these, right? You know, people cut out photos and words of all the stuff they want and paste them on a board. It’s a simple Law of Attraction technique to focus the soul’s intention on manifesting desires. And while that’s an occasionally effective idea, it’s actually a highly limited way to approach the world.
I’ll tell you why.
Someone just wrote me and said, “Hey what IS this? Are you running some crazy religion or somethin?”
And all I can say is, OMFG what a nightmare THAT would be!
No, I’m no guru, I’m no savior, nada. I’m a writer, a highly imperfect Being, and all you’d have to do is spend 5 minutes with my wacky, flawed self to know that. I simply fell in love with the Divine in my own heart, and anyone deeply motivated can do that. To me, EVERYONE is a god or goddess. Most of us just forget.